Hurt~

Is been very long since I feeling deep pain in heart.. really pain.... needles piercing through it. Today suppose to be a very happy day for me..somehow it turn out to be another way. Early morning She msg me.. asking me out for dinner today. Wow what a great surprise I'm having in the morning.. I was very very happy. It totally brighten up me all of a sudden. Even during work no matter how tired I am but once i tot of Having meal with her soon, all my tiredness is gone.

We met up have a nice Jap meal, nice chit chatting. While she having her meal I keep looking at her.. enjoy the way she eat her meal.. so nice n sweet in my heart.. After that meal, we walk around, had some tea.. and look for a place for her pedicure. Found one~~ In the first minutes she asked me to company her..she feel bored... In my heart:" Sure why not.." But things change in the next moment.

1 of her suitor telling her that he is meeting her. Too bad for me.. He get his chance..I do not want her in bad position so i choose to leave. Telling her i going home first.

During the bus trip i keep on listening to 2 song.. " 我爱的人" and also "理想情人"

我爱的人 不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸 都属于另一个人
她真幸福 幸福得真残忍~~
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每当听见 她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情 永恒的嘲笑声~~ haiz... lot of feeling flow through my heart whenever listening to these part of the song.

Sometime i really wanted to ask her ... her 理想情人 is how~~

好想知道你的100分　會給怎樣的人
..
我想問　親愛的你把感情升等
朋友變成情人　可不可以
告訴我標準　不要讓我一直等~~


How i wish...朋友 really can 變成情人~~