It past..

This week.. is a EMO week for me... why? Because of 26th June.. her bday... how i wish i'm able to go out with her.. celebrate with her... but things just don't come through for me. On thur night wanted to called her and wished her... but i did not.. she was working at that time.. i do not want to cause her any trouble.. so i just send her a sms..wishing her happy 21st bday..After that i went to sleep. Because I do not really expect she will reply the message.

10min later... my phone ring...i woke up and saw a new message..surprisingly is from her..somehow there is a certain percentage in my heart feeling very happy to see her reply. Next day..and that is on Friday..i knew that is a day impt for her to spent with family n friends... so i decided to ask her out on the Saturday..praying hard she will accept..waited till night..i nearly lost the hope.. but suddenly a message came.. i was so happy she replied.. but after reading her reply i was disappointed again...She had to attend a friend's Bday BBQ session.. Seem that me and her is really not fated.. Never mind.. if were last time i think i will be very EMO... luckily for now i won;t feel that much.. still trying hard to forget the feeling of her... but i believe i can do it.. :)

So fast.. wkend is gone...ytd just watch transformer.. and now gonna wait for wk starts... :'( weekend always feel so short... dame it.. i really hate NS....

21Days..

Oh...is been 21 days since my last blog haha... Bo pian... WHERE GOT TIME~~~ haha..recently Sgt Keith left us and went to 40 liao... sian lo.. 1 less fun Sgt at wrkshop liao.. haiz... Last wk around Tue the new batch of guys came in... Sian sia.. when they came in just nice i was IC... suddenly pop out so many ppl all my Strength counts all in mess..haha.. Lucky ar..this batch who came in 90% all can do guard duty 1... thank god.. i no need to help ppl take up duty anymore...ahbo sian.. BTW news spreading that this coming wed will start to Stay In!!!! dame it... why!!! why need to stay in? i really don't understand..... If during busy period or OT stay in nvm la..but..not busy aso stay in? For wat~~ fu*k la... just hope there is some hope for us... *praying*

Fri was JY's 21st Bday~~ haha held at East Cost Chalet...went there with Karen..When we went there JY totally unable to recognize me..she still tot i was Karen new bf at first.. haha.. not bad...this shows that somehow I do have the quality to be ppl bf..*shy* haha.. jus kidding~~ We sit down chit chatting and wait for Hannah to come.. But.. somehow her booking out was delayed and cant make it :( sian..unable to see her new look..saded....Wa tt night..now than i know Jy had quiet a number of Gorgeous lady friend... envy.... haha..too bad.. too shy to ask for num.. haha..around 9+ the cake is out..and we all take turns to take pic with the Bday Queen~~At about 10pm..the Cake was cut finally. Finish having our cake Karen wanted to go home..so decide to send her...as she can't stay for too long..

Haiz.. 26june is near...is her bday... Really tot of how do I ask her out..what present should I get for her..etc.... But after a while of thoughts.. I realize is not possible to make it happen.. Y? if things happen it will happen long time ago..when is Valentine.. how i wish that After that day..somehow somethings may happen..even minor things like going out have dinner etc.. But nope..not even anythings... Only things is..only able to chat with her once in a blue moon in msn. Just maybe....maybe she knew about how i feel about her...after the flower incident..maybe she was shocked..she do not have feel for me and trying to keep a distance from me..hoping me can just get away... If she really want it to be.. i will grant it..and all i could say is I'm Sorry for the Trouble and unease i caused....stop keeping a distance away... i shall stop here..and will not go in further... hope still able to contact well with each others... and..

Wishing God willing to spare his pity on me by letting The true 1 appear In Front of me...
As I'm really tired of my Single Life already....