Christmas..... i hate you.. really hate you...

Ytd is Christmas eve.. morning i had a cohesion at sentosa where we play "Amazing race"..dame cock........ feel so stupid.. somemore drench in the rain..Fu*k... In the end whole thing end around 1pm...

I faster rush home as i suppose to meet my grp of friend at 4pm... i manage to reach in time.. bath etc..in the end... i receive a "amazing" news non of them plan the outing...and we were tied down with a young girl...1 of our friend his younger sister is left to his care by their parent all of a sudden..where they go enjoy... meaning that we need to babysit her if we go out...

Eventually I at home all the way.. all i do is facing my comp... clicking here n there... and also send my wish to my friends.... not bad... they responded...but slight disappointed.. I expect she to reply.. but nope... i keep on giving myself excuse that maybe she's asleep, too busy having fun..etc...
But no matter what excuse i trying to think of..is still the fact that... i do not receive any of her msg..Just wondering..am i finding trouble myself? why make myself so hurt? Conclusion.. "Unable to explain"

Today i realize that i do not have much friends...hardly able to find someone when you feeling down, upset, etc.... I'm really a failure....................

Sometimes i really lose hope....

After so long...

Wa... there is sometimes since i last blog le sia.. sian.. nowadays too lazy..too busy for it... Not enough time....................... Haiz.. sian.. fri went for a sentosa cohesion... ok la...but abit gay lo... 1 big bunch of guys go there play...wa pianz...after that we went to dragon gate to have dim sum buffet.. wa pian the table i was with is all hungry ghost!!!! Dame.. the speed and the amount of things we eat... really can make the restaurant gone closed ..haha.. after that went movie with hannah..

We watch Feng Yun2 ..wa pian...is a nice movie at first...but due to they add on too many Sparten Effects, it is spoiled.. oh my god... disappointing...

Haiz..sian... still got 6more mth...is seem near..but feeling so dame far... Really want to get my life back.....have fun, enjoy, work, study, know more people... of coz..hope to get GF too...haiz....

Long WeekEnd

This week Wed book out, Thursday break till Sunday..is really long.... but is super super boring for me.. Why? because i do not have much prog for it... Wanna find people go out, club, have fun, eat etc...but somehow unable to!! God Dame...now than i know how "pop" I'm .... sometimes really feel that Am i really such a bad person till do not have much friends? haiz... When found people to go out already but...spending power wise is little... all of them had not much $ to spend.. haiz....... super super boring and failure....

Anyway what i did the best for this Long Weekend is i watch 4 Movies in total. 2012, Twilight Marathon (part 1 and the most recent New Moon) and lastly is Ninja Assassin. All four movies not bad.. but still in Favor of 2012 and Ninja Assassin. Ninja Assassin the fighting effect, blood etc all very good. Out of 10 it can be a 7 or 7.5 point movie.

As for 2012 like other End of World movie... the effect is good, and the people who die in this show is almost 3/4 of the world population!!! dame...haha..is really a shocking movie... This really make people think again about Saving the Earth thing. This show also help me to rethink about my life... What if the story of 2012 really happen...what will you do? Who is the person you will want to be with? etc.....

Think so much also no use...because tomorrow back to Camp life...haiz.........boring... working with such a kuku Boss when will life be good? dame it man.................

Taiwan Trip

12Nov 2009 is the Start of my Taiwan Trip~~ woo hoo... i had so much so much gd experience in that country... I love the place!! next year i will confirm going back again... or maybe... find a way to stay at there...haha... it is really really a good place... the food, the place, the people...and the girls.. haha.. oh ya their TV prog too haha.. alot of lame stuff.. especially at night the tv prog. Really had a good nice experience..

17Nov 2009.. Suppose to be home at 11pm or 12... but..Flight Delay!! dame it... freaking long delay.. 6hr..... the flight delay for 6hours!! in the end the flight took off at 1am from Taiwan.. WTF.. In the end we reach SG at 5.30am.. Oh My God... really super tu lan... After buying things at DFS we went to Jet Star counter and hoping to get an ans.. but WTF...they just pass us a name card..ask us to call that number.. we was very annoy..but no choice because all of us is too tired to argue.. so we decide to ettle this things next time.. Luckily we take 1 more day of leave for just in case..

18nov 2009.. 1st day back to work.. that day is my first day going back to camp.. wa sian lo..first day go back already so much things need to so.. after all the work super tired sia.. dun feel lik going back home.. but haha in the end still book out..

At Friday we was told that there is a week end call up.. after hearing this all our mood super sian... for me.. i totally did not go out..till around 7pm than i went out.. dame it.. super sian of this kind of fking news... hope there is no next time....

Tony Roma's Ribs

Ytd had a little outing.. we went to Tony Roma have our lunch at Suntec Branch..After looking on the menu i really do not know what to eat at first... all seem to me yummy but eating much will get sick of it.. so i try to look for things like combo.. Luckily i found it.. i had a Blue Ridge Smokies Pork Ribs Combo with BBQ Chicken..
Seem nice? the side dish i had mash potato and fries... but in the end i only manage to finish the mash potato, the chicken and the ribs... as for the fries..i left it alot.. ahaha..too full...

My other friends order different from me... they had the...

Combo set of Ribs with Ribeye Steak.


This i've forgotten what the name of the dish already but it consist for 4 piece of meat.. amg all dishes..this is the biggest plate.. OMG!!

Lastly we shared this plate of calamari rings

Overall after finish this meal.. all i can say is... Yummy....and very very filling.... the total price we split into 4..each of us around $20+..not too bad... is worth too... the service of this restaurant is good too.

After the makan session.. we went round for a walk..to help to digest the food..after that we went to bugis area. When we going to head back home, it rained.... a very very heavy rain... i ran as fast as i can to just cross the road yet in the end i was totally drenched..Around 6.45pm i reach tampines. I head to M1 Shop to fix my connection problem for GPRS...

Wa at first when reach TM tt branch dame sian lo..the waiting... haiz.. keep on wait and wait for the guy to help me..as i look around... Oh My God... i saw 1 of the m1 staff..she is freaking sweet and cute looking for me.... she is the type of girl i looking for... and i found that she look abit alike with G...maybe that girl look alike that why i attracted to her.. oh my god.. look lik i have to go down m1 shop often liao...hahaha...

Taiwan trip is near~~

Oh Oh OH!!! Taiwan trip counting down!!! is freaking NEAR!!!! Yet i have not pack my bag!! fu*k..
Now i chiong till siao liao lo..cos need to do lots of things...including packing of bag... Dame it i only had weekend to do it.. F la.. y i have to stay in... sian sian sian.............

BTW..Sat i bought Sony Ericsson Satio !!!! Red Colour.... hahaha..... feel so happy about it.. but The phone stock will come at tuesday :( My mum going to collect it for me.. Red Satio need to pre-order first.. sian..but never mind.. at least I got a phone to bring to taiwan!! Woo hoo!!

okok GTG... Byes...too busy........

Activation mode...

haiz..sian.... now my Activation Mode start liao.... any time anywhere may kanna call back for Activation..si bei sian............... Last week almost everyday OT.. OT till siao sia..8am start...10pm end.. wa...si bei shag..shag till wed suppose to go home 1 also never.. what a week...

During sat i went round for some shopping... Dame it... i'm a super spender...spend 200+ on clothing..OMG~~ after that when i went home soend around 3hr to pack my cupboard and rearrange them... what a "project"..haha... In few weeks time..gonna be taiwan trip..Oh..hw i wish it happen now... :'( Sian tml booking in le... not sure what things will happen ..hope all things goes well and be a relax week... haiz...

3+hr of net Disconnection!

Today The Eagles are out again..this time we went to Chinatown...... hmm.. nothing much..just went there to exchange for Taiwan $..and ate Bah Kut Teh at there... after that went to Suntec for a stroll and went home.. nothing much...Due to the tiredness of outfield last week. When i came back on my comp to check on somethings..dame~~ i totally lost connection i at first thought maybe 30min later will be fine..too bad ended up till 3+hrs!!! WTH wrong with the connection sia.. sian sian sian~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Taiwan trip is near~~oh dame.. hw i wish i able to meet 1 of the 黑涩会妹眉... esp is 羽婷 aka 糖果. Oh~~ cute cute cute cute and sweet girl she is... It will be the best thing happen if I'm able to make friends with her... haha... okok.. i know Dreaming... Hope it will be a nice trip and good surprise will happen..

Booking In at 2200..sian....

Haiz.................. not a good period for me recently....3weeks ago i MC for Fever..... last week i MC for diarrhoea wa si bei jia liat sia........ Beside that.. Outfield cums outfield again... oh my god~~ :'( very sian... Later on gonna book in to camp le... haiz...feeling so tied down.. totally loss of freedom.. really feeling sick of army already...Lonely and tired is what i feel the most for now... Somebody save me ~~~~~~~~~~~haiz...back to fact... need to go pack bag and get ready le.. haiz...

What a wk...

Last Thur had fever in camp.. sian sian sian.....37.8 degree.. fu*k man why it cannot go higher... haha because such temperature if i go see MO..don't think they will give me MC wish such low fever temp... so no choice lo.. eat panadol hope it goes away...

Next day i woke up with dizzy feeling...i went to check my temperature..oh..is 38.1. It seem that my temp did not went down at all... this time really need to go see MO already... sian... hate going to see MO it took dame long time... sian sian sian... Luckily by 9am i'm done with it..and manage to get MC... I faster change and pack my bag go off..when i leave the guard house i see the whole stretch of rd without cars... a that time i feel so moody... I drag myself walk out of there to the bus stop... few mins later.. God somehow ans my prayers... A taxi came in!!! Wow this save my life... after i reached home, ate my medicine i slept without worries...

On Sat..it suppose to be a day for people to go out but seem like not for me... haha all i can do is slacking at home... and pending to recover fast...due to i had a outfield soon. Yesterday Sunday.. i feeling alot better.. so decide to go otu with the Eagles for lunch... we went to Katong have laksa and the dessert... hmm yummy the dessert stall is still there even though is been long since i last visit. After that we went to parkway for a walk... then proceed to Vivo again............... -_- haha... But haha better than never go out....at least able to see some Pretty Ladies around...

Haiz..sian tomorrow going back camp le... really really sian of it liao.. 2yrs just wasted like that... dame..

Week End..

NOoOoOo~~~~ Wk end is really ending!!! i don't wish it to happen!!!! Give my Weekend Back to me!!!

:'( haiz..so fast weekend is ending.. tomorrow onwards.. I'll be officially Stay-In camp till i ORD... 9mth of STAYING IN!!!!! Super super upset and sian...but also no choice..haiz.. dame it...

Entering army stage is already lifeless...now worst... Lifeless X Max...jia liat... haiz...

Ytd J,HY n me meet up to go for out Taiwan trip planning... At first we went Beach rd to do some hunting for some stuff... in the end i failed...unable to get a jacket.. too bad.. than next we went to Orchard.. to look for J's shoes.. we walk and walk for hours..he still unable to find the shoes he want.. But wait.. i thought we suppose to meet up for trip planning? Haha..in the end due to some nagging by HY... we finally able to sit down at Mac located at Shaw.. Luck is not with us.. Somehow unable to connect to the net... dame it.. We had no choice but had to discuss without using a net.. through the discussion we so far only able to come out a Skeleton of the plan.. Never mind we will meet up again to continue.. Because someone still have not giving up hope for his shoes.. so we stopped around 6.30 and continue shopping... till around 7.30pm..finally gave up..haha.. He announced that Shopping Mission for today is failed.. too bad.... By then is time for Dinner!! but..is a very headache things to think of.. we have no idea of what we going to eat for dinner.. In the end we make up choice of going Chinatown to have our dinner..

When we reached Chinatown that is around 8.15pm already.. we walk some distance and finally reach our destination.. Lee Tong Kee ( 李东记 ) restaurant http://www.ipohhorfun.com/contact.html --> this is the webby for it :> when i reach there i take a look on the menu..
to myself.."oh man so little variety of choice..sian.." I've order a 滑鸡河粉 and others order Beef Hor Fun, Sliced Fish Hor Fun, Wan Tan soup and a Sui Kau Soup.

When the food came it does not really impress me much at first..till i start to pick up the Hor Fun.. Oh My God.. the Hor Fun is so freaking smooth..it did not stick to 1 another.. The meat color of the Chicken is so fresh.. After that i start to eat... wow... really taste nice.. the Hor Fun is smooth and Q, the 滑鸡 meat is very tender, the meat juice did not dry up through cooking... Yummy....... All i can say is tt the Taste of the Cantonese.............................. Dame... is really nice.. I'll go back again to this shop to try other Hor Fun of theirs..

31th Aug 2009..Birthday ?

Today is my birthday? I don't feel it...really don't... why? I realize my Birthday each yr is a disaster.. Each Birthday i make the effort i stay at home..even friend ask me out i will also push it away.. because to me Birthday is a day need top spend with family.. but......somehow people don't think this way.... Today i took my birthday Off just want to spend the day with family but they don't appreciate it.. Before my birthday came.. i already said let go out for a lunch at some nice place or what.. At first they said ok with it.. But today... :'( nope.. none of them.... by the time i wake up.. all of them is... dad work, brother study...both of them i do not expect they will..so is fine with me..but my mum..she told me she eaten the lunch already..and having her hair treatment... WTH is this?

What the F for taking Birthday OFF today where everyone is out and i at home staring at computer to spend my fu*king Birthday alone at this F*cking home???? Family love? Bullshit... Craps to it... does not happen in here.. dame to it....

If i foresee such things happen i rather spend the time at Camp... at least i will be happier at there... Dame Dame Dame.............................

Since like that.. okk fine... Next week i will stay inside camp liao till next yr....... will only see them during wk end... but don't worry i will make the effort see their face as less as possible.........

Outfield till sian

This whole week tired sia... everyday outfield... Gedon outfield is not a kidding matter... super dusty and sandy........ i think the vehicle filter confirm gone case... Friday finally reached home.. but everything was so rush.. because Sunday need to book in..sian to max... i need to download all my drama etc, wash clothes, dry them and pack them.. Saturday went out with the Eagles... but did not really enjoy much.. too tired for anything...all i want is just resting.

Later on 6pm gonna leave my hus le.. because need to take train to CCK have dinner than Book in camp.. super sian lo.. the CSM want us book in with the combatant just want to count strength.. n he say by 9.45pm.. fuck sia.. by than i think i'm already slping le lo.. ka jiao.......... haiz.. just hope this week is a week that pass through smooth and fast... and no more outfield!!!

What a wk~~ What a Sunday..What a F up period

From Mon till wed all the while is really a shiok moment for me... but good things will always come with bad things..and my nightmare started on Thur... Thur my course started.. dame..the prog i saw is abit shocking... next Tue onward..outfield + outfield + outfield all the way!!! F*ck.. hectic to max lo.. Like that nvm.. Today (Sunday) we had AHM... we need to report at 6am at Esplanade!! oh shit....meaning i woke up at 4am and take taxi to there....

Is really bullshit man..they only giv us $400+ use also not enough liao..still want us take taxi to there... in such early hr where got public transport sia... dame it... like that nvm.. tml (Monday) those who ran AHM today no off!!!! Because we need to go back to camp as usual timing where by other people got off or leave!! Fu*k up lo..we ran like mad today..without give us proper resting..tml still ask us go back work.. WTH is this.. somemore i got outfield all the way.. holy hell.....

What really went wrong in my life? Is been so chaos~~Hw i can bare with it such long time? Anyway too tired to continue writing.. need to rest... Just hope that nothing screw up during my course.. *Praying hard*

After so long..

7/19/2009 is my last entires till now.. holy shit..is really a long period haha.. Busier and Busier. Why? All thanks to the higher up.. I've been having course + course + course.. back to back action without stoping.. really drench out my brain and my body... 好累哦~~ 好想有个人可以好好的让我靠一靠休息一下......这人几时才会出现呢?

Next week thur start i will be staying inside camp already... till when i not sure... from the schedule we had.. i think i will stay till i ORD... maybe to other people is not that bad...but to me is a bad moment... really feel like my Freedom is getting lesser and lesser... feeling been tied down...harder and harder.. I'm a person who don't like to be tied down so much..but this case.. i really can't do anything about it... really feeling helpless sometimes...

Yeah.. i know i getting more and more emo~~ but can't help...anything can bring me happier pls do so..pls dun ask me 看开点.. i've been trying hard to control my mind already... compare to others i can say my control of mind is very good already.. In my life so far i break down 2times... wondering will there be 3rd time?

BTW.. Just came back form GI. Joe movies.. god dame..is freaking cool... i think guys will like it but not the girls... even the story plot is not really there..but those action pack + weapon make the movie dame cool and good. If Saf had such weapon..i think we guys will not need to have NS liao..cos is really very inbared.. but weapons can safe life..at same time can kills.. if terroirst get such weapon..all of us will be died long times ago... where still got the time to love, shop, sex, etc ? Anyway overall this movie if you a action movie fan..can go for it.. you will enjoy it :)

Birthday soon will be here...but how will be be? Another year that is a boring one? or a exciting one? or ....a romantic 1? but... i guess high chances of a Boring one.... is been long long time since had a birthday celebration.....

Chalet is gone~~

Is been 2weeks in Kranji for course...fantastic really chalet at there... we always fall out very early. Early as 2pm fall out and I reach home at 2.30pm by taxi.. it was freaking accessible !! Even tough is 1hr trip home by bus + train but no matter what is still took shorter time back home compared to Gedon... Dame dame dame~~~~~~~ happiness really don't last long for me.. Going back there on tue :( sian sian sian~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ back to gedon really don't think i will suit the tempo at there anymore.. haiz..sian..need to re-adjust myself again..

At Thur..the gang come out some stunt... suddenly wanna book thicket to Taiwan by Sunday!! OMG.. how to get clearance by such short time? i was really panic for it.. But luckily on Friday Sgt Heng gave me clearance for it.. At sat me and hian yang went to airport to have a check out. We wanted to buy the thicket on the spot but it was good that we never. Because..we suddenly pop out 1 more person!!! That is out mei mei aka Dennis... wa lucky ar... if not left out him i will not sure how he will scream... haha. So we went back to airport today (Sunday) again.

Wa kao Bth sia... we meet 2.30pm in the end 3.30 than every1 gather.. than we did not went straight to get thix wor.. we went round and round... wa dame it man..and alot of things crop up. If nv gather everyone i think thing will be worst. We tried to book online but "Thanks" to the laptop.. it went low batt..and we could not find a power point to recharge.. We dame fed up with it in the end we decide to come to tampines. But bad things happen never stop at 2 or 3 times..it continues!!! we reached Starbucks at 6.50pm.... we've keep on trying to connect to the dame wireless at there till 7.30pm and finally gave up... Somehow they came out an idea of coming my house. Think..that the last choice..and they came..

Maybe some1 in our group go out nv pray hard well enough that why so sway.. but when came to my house..all things went well!! Oh Thanks...........finally we book our thicket to Taiwan!!!! 11th Nov night flight to KL than morning 9.50am change Flight to Taiwan by AirAsia... till 16th Nov Jetstar flight back at 6.25pm back to SG... Really looking forward to it.. now all i can say is

Taiwan!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I Coming!!!!!!!

Silent night with Raining moments

Is a cold night, silent night... even though my parents are at home.. i still feel such ways... Why? Why will i feel such way? Keep on asking myself this question. *Sigh* Only ans for it is.. No Girlfriend's love...hmm.... i wonder if this carry on till i age of 40..what will happen to me? Unbalance mindset? haiz...

There is a girl i knew for sometimes....she's from HongKong but now she went back there already... she's really a sweet and nice girl.. very caring ..have a very pleasant , cute, and sweet looks. Just too bad.. she is now at HK..if not I think i'll try all my best to date her.. Maybe when i have the time n $..hmm...will went there and meet her.. haha..

Sian tml Bronco course le..haiz...starting of course theory test liao..dame it... i hate thery test lo.. hope able to pass...beside that..wish the course will held at OETI all the way... don't really want to go kranji camp...going there is just like going Gedon...not much diff.....*praying hard*

It past..

This week.. is a EMO week for me... why? Because of 26th June.. her bday... how i wish i'm able to go out with her.. celebrate with her... but things just don't come through for me. On thur night wanted to called her and wished her... but i did not.. she was working at that time.. i do not want to cause her any trouble.. so i just send her a sms..wishing her happy 21st bday..After that i went to sleep. Because I do not really expect she will reply the message.

10min later... my phone ring...i woke up and saw a new message..surprisingly is from her..somehow there is a certain percentage in my heart feeling very happy to see her reply. Next day..and that is on Friday..i knew that is a day impt for her to spent with family n friends... so i decided to ask her out on the Saturday..praying hard she will accept..waited till night..i nearly lost the hope.. but suddenly a message came.. i was so happy she replied.. but after reading her reply i was disappointed again...She had to attend a friend's Bday BBQ session.. Seem that me and her is really not fated.. Never mind.. if were last time i think i will be very EMO... luckily for now i won;t feel that much.. still trying hard to forget the feeling of her... but i believe i can do it.. :)

So fast.. wkend is gone...ytd just watch transformer.. and now gonna wait for wk starts... :'( weekend always feel so short... dame it.. i really hate NS....

21Days..

Oh...is been 21 days since my last blog haha... Bo pian... WHERE GOT TIME~~~ haha..recently Sgt Keith left us and went to 40 liao... sian lo.. 1 less fun Sgt at wrkshop liao.. haiz... Last wk around Tue the new batch of guys came in... Sian sia.. when they came in just nice i was IC... suddenly pop out so many ppl all my Strength counts all in mess..haha.. Lucky ar..this batch who came in 90% all can do guard duty 1... thank god.. i no need to help ppl take up duty anymore...ahbo sian.. BTW news spreading that this coming wed will start to Stay In!!!! dame it... why!!! why need to stay in? i really don't understand..... If during busy period or OT stay in nvm la..but..not busy aso stay in? For wat~~ fu*k la... just hope there is some hope for us... *praying*

Fri was JY's 21st Bday~~ haha held at East Cost Chalet...went there with Karen..When we went there JY totally unable to recognize me..she still tot i was Karen new bf at first.. haha.. not bad...this shows that somehow I do have the quality to be ppl bf..*shy* haha.. jus kidding~~ We sit down chit chatting and wait for Hannah to come.. But.. somehow her booking out was delayed and cant make it :( sian..unable to see her new look..saded....Wa tt night..now than i know Jy had quiet a number of Gorgeous lady friend... envy.... haha..too bad.. too shy to ask for num.. haha..around 9+ the cake is out..and we all take turns to take pic with the Bday Queen~~At about 10pm..the Cake was cut finally. Finish having our cake Karen wanted to go home..so decide to send her...as she can't stay for too long..

Haiz.. 26june is near...is her bday... Really tot of how do I ask her out..what present should I get for her..etc.... But after a while of thoughts.. I realize is not possible to make it happen.. Y? if things happen it will happen long time ago..when is Valentine.. how i wish that After that day..somehow somethings may happen..even minor things like going out have dinner etc.. But nope..not even anythings... Only things is..only able to chat with her once in a blue moon in msn. Just maybe....maybe she knew about how i feel about her...after the flower incident..maybe she was shocked..she do not have feel for me and trying to keep a distance from me..hoping me can just get away... If she really want it to be.. i will grant it..and all i could say is I'm Sorry for the Trouble and unease i caused....stop keeping a distance away... i shall stop here..and will not go in further... hope still able to contact well with each others... and..

Wishing God willing to spare his pity on me by letting The true 1 appear In Front of me...
As I'm really tired of my Single Life already....

Is Long~~~~~~~~~~~

Wa... is been long since i last update :P haha... bo pian... Every week almost same things happen.. nothing much to write... when comes to weekend..feeling so tired..totally moodless to write anything.. haiz.. sian..... y the boss always like to do stunt 1..........Every week will have 1 or 2 stunt.. sian.. 1 more yr~~ `more yr to ORD.... it sound short to ppl..but it seem long for me... need to bare with it for 1yr.... haiz... so lifeless... soon new bird coming in liao... hope once they come in will not give any trouble...

Because the boss will confirm play us upside down to max~~There's 1 bad news i heard..... haiz. once the new bird r in... we will be staying in till ORD!!!!!!!!! F*ck man... i really don't understand why we need to be like that... really ridiculous. 1 or 2 day Stay in for OT ok la understand... but stay till ORD? WTF!! everyday OT meh? dame it~~~ really Brainless... if really stay in till like tt..haiz... i will be super super emo~~ I'm a guy without much life le for now... if stay in.. i think i will become gay or 宅男 aka Guy totally witout life~~haiz.. 伤脑经啊!!

Soon..june is coming... there's a few friends bday... and 1 of it is her's... What am i going to do? What the present i going to give? etc... All only will lead to 1 ans and that is " I not sure". Maybe i should drop the idea of her ba.. because no matter how i think .. there is totally ZERO chance between me n her.. both of us do not have any same interest, likings etc.. Linkage between me and her is "0".. Maybe all we have is just fate to be friends that all..and nothing much..

Somebody save me from Lifeless!!

Sianz X10000000!!!!!! haiz................ even though with long weekend..Fri, Sat, Sun and Mon~~SO WHAT?? Dame it ..is really Freaking boring!!! wanna go club..unable to find ppl -_-..when found..all is guys no girls.. Holy hell!! What kind of luck i have!!! everyday see Guy not enough? even go out also with guys? come on god.. i believe my life should be better than this~~ Is not i despo nor horny that why searching for girls to go out..but really..dame bored to max...Seeing guys in camp everyday already...go out also go out with guys..i cannot imagine this continue till i finsih NS.. by than i guess i become Gay liao...no more Stright ... haha

Ytd the Gang went out for another gathering..but this time super sian....at first, we went to Next Door Cafe for our dinner.. at Arab Street there..

http://www.nextdoorcafe.sg/ --> this is the webby if U interested..

The food not bad.. but don't expect you will be very fulled provided you order finger food. I've order Mediterranean Orange Chicken and go with the Soup Of the Day. The Soup of the Day is Tomato Soup.

Wa pian eh.. the soup ar..really is Tomato soup~~~ super got the Tomato taste...seem like they really used fresh Tomato and cook it...is really sour...but is nice.. it look simple..but you are wrong!! when you stir with it...you will realize that in the soup there is some cheese with it...this make the soup abit more chowder..and same time your teeth just like able to bit some things from it..the feeling is really nice.. As for the Mediterranean Orange Chicken..haha it seem like our Chinese the fried Lemon chicken breast..haha.. i mean from its look la..but when u eat it.. hmm.. there's some sweetness of the orange mix with the tender of the chicken..and is crispy.. yummmy..... The chicken meat even though is fried..but during the process the meat juice still stays.. and the meat is very tender.. this dish is quite well balance.. even from the way you see is alot of fried stuff...but there is 1 whole lot of Greens at the side of the dish.. haha but too bad.. i don't eat veg :P so i gave all to ZY.. haha.. Actually is ok to continue sit at there to chill and drink.. but the guys don't want!! si bei sian... 1 of the reason wanna stay there is..they had a Ang Mo chio bu there..haha she's either 1 of the partner of the cafe or the boss.. wa lao wasted nv take her pic..haha.. very friendly woman..

In the end we went off..and go to boat quay at first... we walked there!!! dame it.. till there again they can't find a place to drink..than walked to Clark Quay~~ wa lan eh.. always like that 1..walk till there le lay..we went to Cafe Iguana..we order just a glass of drink..after that..1 of the guy say not much mood to continue and the end we went home.. *Faint..* really disappointing lo..always like that 1.. still thought able to go home late..but 11+ reached home.. WHY they so boring 1!! always go home so early.. go clubbing also don't 1..wa kao... no life bunch lay.... haiz.......... how i wish somehow miracle happen that next time they willing to go clubbing..and.. will stay out late..

lask wk + this wk

Hmm last week nothing much happen..only on Friday we have bbq in camp and our Zhi yun he freaking drunk!! drunk till keep on talking alot of rubbish~~ dame..... other than that nth much happen..so when back home..lazy to blog..haha.. as for this week.. hmm..not much things happen too...

A few teammate and I was assigned to teach those Driver about taking out the battery and installing back form the vehicle.. Wa.. teaching them feel so shiok sia.. as if we are the boss like tt..even their Sgt..the way he talk to us as if we were higher ranking than them..haha..but overall things went well.. On Thur we have a 19fmd gathering at jurong the prawning village there.. 9am start till 12pm...sian ar....haha..tt day caught 5 prawn...i think actually can be more...but haha..1 of us beening unlucky...he hold the rod for 1hr+ not even a prawn catch...si bei sway... haha..after tt finally over... I went home with Vic and have lunch at Carl's Jr..wow the burger is really big..haha my first time having Carl's Jr btw... abit sua ku.. haha..after that we went some simple shopping around...after that we went home...

Ytd nite i and my friend went to Ehub for movie... Friday 13~~~ woo.. gross... hahaha... alot of shocking part..but more gross part..in the movie Jason fucking skillful lo..knn commando also lose to him ar i think.. alway head shot ppl..cut ppl head lik cutting watermelon like that..hahaha.. is really a gd for for bringing girl watch along..so they can hug you closely..and you can comfort her with your man courage.. haha.. too bad..haiz........................ once a loner always a loner...i do not have such luck of bringing a girl to watch.... si bei sian............. 23 this yr le... yet still single... Pathetic Guy~~~~sian sian sian.......hope my NS life faster finish..

no $~~~

haiz... sian no $ le sia...how... jia liat..haha.. ytd went to Tamp1 there walk walk... at first i thought since it open for 1wk+ already..maybe the crowed will not be much. Too bad, i was wrong. It is still freaking lots of people there.. sian sia........... since at there liao..so took a walk around lo.. I bought a bottle of Melon wine at the jap Sake shop... the taste is still nt too bad..after that went to Challenger to have a look out of their things.

While taking the elevator up.....passed by a very "Fantastic" sence.. i was really shock.... people is queing up just to get into that UniQlo to shop!!! The line is so long till it form a "S" shape.... dame it..................what really so great of that? why everyone wanna Q to just shop at that shop? Are they really out of the mind? Some of the people keep on nagging and complain about it took so long till them...wasted their time... I really wanted to go up and asked...since is a long Q.. y F*cking go Q for it? and you know it will be long... Sometime i really don't understand..

After walking awhile i find it is too squeezy liao... so decided to go TM..at there i bought a Picard wallet...haha... $89... wanted to wait till the next pay..but aya..haha since i was there le... and my Pierrs Cardin wallet quite old and "cui" liao.. due to temptation.. i bought it... ahaha.. siao liao.. must really go out less for the next few weeks...

Oh NO!!!

OH no~~ this week is super tiring!!!! luckily Friday is good Friday that saved me from work.. But no matter what this week somehow super tiring. My shoulder and wrist had slight fractured but because we had a lot of stuff to do..haiz.. die die continue with the work.. no choice.. This week overall nothing much..but through working, as day passes, I've realize i learning new things everyday.

During Friday the X-man team gather once again to discuss "Mission".. but somehow i was been irritated thanks to 1 kuku guy.. called Mr K... haha.. he dame irritating keep on saying: " ok, let go eat Horng (hokkien of air) " Meaning of that is stay at home n rot.. -_- dame it lo.. really fed up. Partly is because i very tired already that why get irritated so easily. After a long discussion we finally decide to go Liang Court for dinner. Next Day we went there.. but amazingly the guys suddenly have another thinking.. keep on wanna change of place to eat..did not stick to our original plan.. OH my god.. i really abit fed up with that..so hell no..I'm not letting such things happen.. so i insist of having dinner at liang court n no where else. At first when we saw the Q line of Saizeriya Ristorante E Caffe ( Italian ) is dame freaking long..we really worried of it..

Lady of Luck is with me at that moment... when we are queuing the waitress came to ask how many person we have.. so i said 4.. amazingly they have seats for 4..so they give it to us first.. we from last group of the Q became first to have seat.. is really luckily. Looking through the menu it seem that the price there still affordable. 4 of us ordered 1 set meal each... set meal consist of 1 main course 1 soup (both at your own choice) + 1 steam rice.. than add $2++ will have free flow water..we order 2 more pizza and 1 dish tt look like bake rice. Guess what? total only cost $22 !! GST and service change included.. OMG...

Not bad.. next Mission I'll shall try another type of cuisines...My objective is every outing try out new things, so our life will not be the same as always.

Sian monday soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hw i wish it nv come..haiz....... :'( somemore i got guard duty..dame it.. just hoping things is smooth this week.

Not too bad~~

Is been around a week+ working at Gedon liao. ok la still not too bad.. and learn a lot of stuff.. Sgt la, Sir la, and the old bird all of them are quite nice. haiz..sian 1 bad things of tt camp is dame FAR!! from my house!!! the traveling time is freaking tiring for me~~.

Every morning i need to wake up at 4.15am to prepare. By 5am i need to go off from my hus and walk to MRT. Because i need to catch the first train which is 5.25am, but there is no bus from my house reach there so early.. so no choice have to walk. haiz.. than from there take to Boon Lay and take shutter bus home. As for going home same thing.. reverse of the process. But taking the first shutter bus or 2nd is really making alot of different. Anyway normally i took the 2nd bus due to the fall out time haiz.. :(

Jia liat.. i spend too much at ytd liao... bought 4 polo-tee and a $190 Spec !!! total around $200+. Comfirn got ppl say i siao 1 for buying a $190 spec. You think i want meh.. bo pian.. is the lens tt is ex.. cos my eyes the Reflection degree is 225. Lens that suit Reflection degree for 225 is costly. Somemore i add on the UV lens which can become a sun glass too under sunlight :) ... that is why total up cost me $190.. ho seh liao... haha.. hope when it come next friday. it look nice on me..

Hopeless

Around 2week nv update le.. Reason is..busy busy busy~~~ haiz.. last week just get my new posting.. 19FMD 46SAR .. Sungei Gedon .. Good Game.. After knowing it.. i really feel like fall from heaven till Hell.. super super sian.. Never mind... awhile later combo follow by another combo...things happening for non stop action. Just posted to there nia.. kanna High Key event liao.. somemore 2 years!!! Sir say our oversea may go India..the Company i supporting is a Recce Company..All these factors will lead me to a super super super no life guy!! Stress to max sia!!! hw i hope now got 2 mth holiday n i got $... can go oversea for a relax trip.. haiz... wondering will i kanna depression soon or later or not..

Hw i wish..there is a girl..like an angel...come into my life..save me from all my 烦恼, give me hope, warm me up..

Anyway..now just hope.. it will not be any more Bumpy ...

Sunday~~

Sian so fast Sunday le.. haiz.. last week super BTH... everyday book out late... wa pian.. the Boss keep on drag n drag our bk out time.. always like to talk rubbish when we falling out 1 lay.. y can't do it in the middle of the day? haiz.. I wonder why non of us get depression.. i hope some1 kanna liao ar.. than the parent complain..sometime really super pec cek 1 lo.. hm.. i injured my knee on tuesday :'( how? when i was going up the stairs, my boot had some oil... it slip..just like WWE Knee Drop.. i Knee Drop on the stair.. wa the feeling super jia liat.. On Wed i totaly hard to walk lo. In the end sgt ask me to go see MO.

Seeing Mo what the use? haiz.. our MO very -_- no need see also know he will give Ex LL and light duty that all.. but in our camp where got such thing as ex LL and light duty? no matter what also need to work 1 mah.. but bo pian..than go see lo.. In the end..just like what i expected.. i get EX LL and Light Duty till 17/03/09. BTW on 17..is my guard duty sia.. haha tt day i still on statues ..wondering how..

At Sat.. we went to Sentosa!! beaches, sun shine, bikini babes etc... too bad.. not so much of thoes... we reach the beach around 11.40am.. wa at tt time the shine is good.. i lay my towel on the ground n start sun tanning.. as for Zhi yun they all, they went to buy a $23 ball and start playing with tt..haha throwing and passing around..seem abit boring at first.. till they start to use the ball wrack the hell of each others including dennis and me who is sun tanning.. But Dennis kanna the most.. While sun tanning, i look around and eyeing on some babes.. too bad not much tt day.. most is XMM..At around 1pm Darren arrived.. he brought us some drinks. We sit around together chit chatting till around 2pm we went off to bath.

Sian..During tt time when we went off a bunch of korean Girls came!! dame it.. is 1 big bunch lo.. wa pian..too bad we leaving.. wasted. Nvm still have chance to come to the beach..hope next trip is a gd one. We went to vivo and have our lunch as Shushi Tei after that all of us go our own way.
A close shave sia.. just nice when i reach home it rained super heavily.. heng ar.. it did not rain when we are there.. haiz.. tue Guard duty... after tt BX test.. shag sia.... praying hard nice things happen this wk~~

Current & My Future

We this week started with a few things first.. Monday we were assign a PBL project....is some sort like a final course project just like Poly times...Naturally my group will be with the X-man Team. After that..we were told that at Wednessday we have an off day ...but is just for us to do our PBL -_- sian sia... even off also cannot off properly.. haiz... nvm... during Thursday ...wow a drama appear in our camp.. MP raiding!! woo hoo...but.. boring.. i expect that someone will be caught by the MP for bringing something that not suppose to bring.. too bad nth happen..This drama drag long enough for us till Off work...we chop chop do our area cleaning and than off work.

Today i, jackson, Hian Yang and Clement meet up to go Suntec. We went there have a look on the Education Fair. Not too bad, after some consultation and findings we able to have a clearer mind which sch to choose after we ORD. Actually there is 1 school asking us to apply now to go for their part time studies. But there's somethings worrying me..1 is the time effort i can used on it, 2nd is even though they said attendance is not really an issue as every lesson is recorded using DVD..we could use tt DVD n bring home to study. This idea is gd..but from what i think is better for me personally sitting in the classroom. So that if i have any question i still can clarify on the spot. If watching the DVD..who could i ask? computers? haha.. anyway now i got a few choice in my mind already.. European University, Murdoch University and International Hotel Management Institute. These 3 is my top 3 priority choice now...

A Bumpy Week

Wa this week don't know why..dame hard to pass ar... maybe due to guard duty.. tired, slpy, unable to focus, whole team get play by Boss... really bth.. more over did not rest well i feeling sick. haiz.. how i wish.. there is someone to cuddle and hug with to ease my mind, someone to hear me out,someone to love.. Nevermind luckily the week have passed.. is WEEKEND!!

Finally reach weekend..so happy.... ytd the X-man team is out on mission again.. At First we suppose to go eat Dragon Gate eat dim sum buffet at Vivo but because some of us was late in the end we reach there at 12.45pm.. The receptionist told us that we only able to eat till 1.30pm and that surprise us. Because in the website wrote 2pm is the last order. Since there is only less than an hr to enjoy..we give up on it..so we went round the mall to check others out. But hungry man is a angry man.. haha... soon we irritated..and wanted to anyhow pick one and eat. Lady of luck is with us.. we manage to see Mache at Vivo..so we choosen that.

Wow all we can say is we never choose wrong place.. we have a extream good meal at there. All of us ate till so full that we unable to stuff anymore thing in anymore. For me i spend around $50+ on that meal..and is a good 1.. 1 of the dish is Fresh Oyster that cost me..haha..After that we went to shop.. Our objective is all of us need to get a clothes if not cannot go home..haha I bought a button shirt at Zara.. we walk around till 6.30pm and we went home. When i reach tamp, i went to CS to buy Comic.. wa jia lait sia.. i total buy 6 comic book and 3 pair or socks in the end.. haiz..a day don't i spend how much le sia... must really save n save liao...ahbo no $

我累了..真的好辛苦

我近来的感到的是 “眼睛累了, 身体累了, 心累了，精神累了, 灵魂累了, 我累了..好辛苦啊!” 我好想哭泣但,却哭不出来,因为我工作累到忘了一切的感觉了. 上个星期六是情人节,这个节日我已过了23年的孤单了,好讨厌这节日也好讨厌这感觉. 我希望那天真的能和“她”一起度过, 哪怕只是短短1hr, 但还是一场空. 有时我真的感觉好像是被“月老”和“缘分” 他们给遗弃了或者被他们两玩弄在鼓掌之间. 说真的我已有点厌倦这世界了, 有时会奇奇怪怪的想法忽然浮现在我的脑海里.

上个星期五那晚, 当我准备要睡觉时,“她”上线了还突然之间message我. “她”问了我花是不是我送的,当时我吓呆了根本想不到要怎样 回答“她”. 那时候我就傻傻的回答了. “她”向我道谢还说这真的是个好大的惊喜. 那时我在想:“真的吗?你在附言我呢还是真的感到惊喜?”
后来我也没想那么多了,但我真的希望那12朵紫色玫瑰“她”真的喜欢. 说真的我也希望这些花是“她”的第一次男孩子在情人节送“她”花经验. 但我想以她这样的女孩是有点不可能的. 各个朋友都问我,那我没约她吗?因为我送“她”花 ..

送给心爱的女孩花 不一定真的要她回报你什么, 只要我知道“她”感到高兴和幸福就可以了. 这星期,“她”上线时和她聊了一会儿. 不知她是不是很喜欢作弄我还是暗示我她对我没感觉. 当我问“她”情人节那天过的怎样, “她”说还不错 那我就开玩笑的问去那里约会呢? 她却说这种事不用分享的..她会害羞. 说完后, 我心里就想了想这是什么意思?难道她是在暗示我她有喜欢的人了? 还是是我太敏感了呢? haiz....爱情烦 人生烦 家里烦 作兵烦...真的好烦!!!好辛苦...

Valentine is Coming~~

Just in Case next week I'm too busy to blog.. in here i wish everyone Happy Valentine Day First. Hmm.. today i went to do a shopping of the gift for her. Lucky enough I'm able to to get it and is purple!! so happy for it..haha.. but it cost me $120 sia.. hmm nvm la.. worth it for Valentine.. a few friend asked me why i do not want to put my name on it? Yup.. I'm a coward. I'm afraid that once she know is me, if thing do not turn out good, we 2 may not be friend anymore. Yes she is a cheerful and outgoing girl..but girl like her surprisingly is also shy type of girl. Due to too embaress she maybe will stop chating with me and will slowly drift away. I do not wish such things to happen. It is really hurting.
I giving her gift does not mean i ask for any return.. as a chinese saying: " 爱一个人不一定要有结果，不追求结果，就不会有尽头的那一天" But i was told by a friend that I'm stupid..haha.. never mind..haha.. All i want hope is this gift able to bring her some happiness to her love life..

That All~~
I wonder what if somehow she is really so pro able to find out is I'm the one. haha how should i react sia? anyone can give a a clue?

Mon ~ Fri Dirty, Smelly, and Sick of it..

What a dirty week we have in camp... our hand covered in greased, our coverall is smelly and stained with greased too... wow washing of the clothes will be tiring. Next week we will have our theory test. I really don't understand why there is a need for it. Waste of time, we should do more hands on so that we are clear what are we doing. Thanks to the test, now i have to do some mugging of it. If get less than 60%, During Valentine day we will need to stay back. Dame it.. is really Lame of it. Now just hope that i can pass the test and move on.

WA~~

Wa pian why weekdays always pass so fast? sian lay haven enjoy enough...haiz... hmm.. People around me have started to send their application to uni liao....hope they able to get through.. as for me this study hopeless guy lay..hmm i also made my move already.. I planning to apply GlobalSim their International Hotel Management Institute( IMI)'s Bachelor of Arts in International Hotel & Tourism Management (Full-time)


Last time during TP career fair, I've asked the entry of it. But somehow is not successful due to I'm in IT field unable to switch to Business field. Now they have make changes to it. I already sent an email to reconfirm about the Admission Criteria. Hope they reply with good news. If is good news i willing to apply it and get a place in there first. To me if i'm able to get this degree, it will be easier for me in tourism and hotel line. Because this is my intereste and this cert is by Switzerland. As we all know Switzerland is well know for thier tourism cert. If you get it mean you earn a 1 way thicket to easier future. Now what i can do is pray for good news and faster get my ass out of NS.

Unlucky + Emo

During this period..I'm really very very very busy....each day had passed so fast till I did not notice anything that happened around me. Haiz... Feeling more n more sian n tired le... How i wish there is a girl shower me with all her care, love and sweetness..but is just a dream for me i guess.. everyone have been telling me to wait for my fate to come.. but i waited for 23yrs already... why still nothing happen? Sometime i really wondering m I life of solo? so lost...so lonely.. In CNY i also alone.. sian... even i went to friend house celebrate, or go to my grandma house celebrate i still feeling sian.. Y? Maybe is because my parent and my brother went oversea without me..left me alone at home... and i do not have a GF to company with..

really feeling tired of my single life le...




BTW there is some good phrase that i remembered from a TV show:



1) 爱一个人不一定要有结果,不追求结果,就不会有尽头的那一天


2)尘世间最遥远的距离,不是放在你面前,却不知道我爱你,而是明明知道彼此相爱，却不能在一起


3)相思无用，唯别而已， 别期若有定，千般愁苦则如何?


4)秋风起， 黄花散尽,红烛灭，伊人问处追寻

Roses for your Love ones

Finally~~

Finally is Friday... wa piang..this wk is a fast n furious week... even though i feel super tired..but all things just passed so fast.. So fast till i cant remb much detail of it.. Haiz sian next sat i'll be on 24hr duty..just before Chinese new year eve sia..haiz... still thought after tt i will not have anymore guard duty.. but i'm wrong. On Wednessday new guard duty detail is out... dame it.. feb also got my share... doing on week days.. wa kao..super sian lay..this mth acturelly not my duty..but 1 of the Eagle friend he cant do it so i stand in for him as brother....... but..it seem stupid..dame..

Nvm la.. LLST.... i take it as a man for it..just hope than for this mth n next mth during duty nth happen. Very soon is CNY...but i'll be all alone as my family going on curise trip.. :( too bad..got NS cant really go anywhere..

After that next event will be 14th Feb... Valentine day..is another day tt i hate most..as i'm still single even though there's some1 in my heart..haiz...I really wish to cele with her..but it will not happen..I'm just not her type of tea.. All i can do is get her address..and maybe send a surprise to her door steps..

is Sunday!!

Finally this week had passed..wa feel dame tired.. since wed i've been waking up at 4.20am or 4.30am. Why? cos my boss want us by 7.10am reached..really dame sick lo.. if everyday like tt i think i really can die... heng only for this week...

We started to have hand-on on our vehicle le..is really really cool lo...but when you inside..is dame humid.. like a barbecue pork like tt.. n the space is so limited to move around.. I really having abit of prob for that. After hearing instructor what the lesson plan, it was really SHAG lo~~ so pack..really can die sia... Worrying how can i survive it.

On Wed..have a chat with hannah.... saded lo...she keep on spoil my name...hahaha.. spoil my name nvm..keep on say i'm a 怀男人..haiz.. ya lo.. i am 1... that why till now i still no gf, no $, no friend..when festival also all alone..haiz..sian.......

23yr old this yr liao... wondering when will be my turn fate come to me...

Person wihtout Time

Haiz.. always say where got time..where got time.. this time really no time...
GG to max... before today announcement made.. Monday till Friday..everyday i need to wake up at 4.30 or 4.40am..so that i can reach camp in time..

Just now before we leave.. our IC told us that fall-in timing now changed..Changed to 7.10am must fall in.. WTF wrong with that?!!! 7.10? siao bo~~ like that what time should i wake up? what time should i sleep? where will i have enough time for other things? D*me it to max... Everyone envy that i stay out.. at a relax camp...but do they know behind it the real truth ? Is really F-up

Feeling dame sian, tired, stress.... haiz......

小娘惹 last eps

Wa..小娘惹 last eps today sia.. nb i duno miss how many fucking eps le..but after so many sg show this 1 attract me the most somemore got Felicia Chin.. haha.... SUPPORT!! die die must watch..

Is 10pm now...just finished watching 小娘惹 last eps..all i can say is sg TV show hardly capture my heart and this is 1 of them..really dame good~~ Next Star Award confirm they win liao... And now..is time for me to sleep liao :'( sian... tml still need to go camp...

BackAch day~~

Haiz..sian.. these few dayz my tailbone there dame hurt lo..wondering how sia..
How i wish she's know it..and can get some care and concern by her..even just a simple question like "Are you ok? have you seen a Doc?" it will be heart warming for me..